What Happens When Your Dreams Shatter Around You? |I Do Disney #3 | Sitting In The Clouds

For some people, life gets handed to them on a nice silver plate and sometimes even by a butler. For others, we have to work our butts off just to get by. But what happens when your dream, that used to feel exactly that, a dream, starts becoming a possible reality? You may get ahead of yourself, already imagining yourself living that dream, whatever it may be. You might get so caught up in your dream, you feel like it’s already happening. For me that dream was Disney, more precisely, working at Walt Disney World on their Cultural Exchange Program. It’s been my dream to work for “the mouse” as they say since I was a little girl. I’ve been lucky enough to be brought up with a Disney filled childhood and as I grew up that love blossomed into a dream to work there.


For me, that dream was always possible if I took that step into the unknown. Disney has a program where university students, from all around the world, have the opportunity to work in the most magical place on earth during their summer break. This year I applied. In August, I received an email, I had been invited to a pre-screen interview. I was over the moon, my dream was slowly but surely becoming a reality. But like most people, or it may just be me, but I got ahead of myself. Getting that interview felt like I had reached my dream, in my head, I was going. I got too excited, my mum even started looking for hotels when I would be there next summer for god’s sake. My whole family had faith in me, my boyfriend even got me a custom t-shirt with “cast member in training” on it. Everyone who surrounded me only made those feelings grow and I even started saving, preparing myself for all the fees, making jokes that I would miss my yearly dentist checkup.


Last week, that dream came shattering around me. They had decided to not move me on in the application. I think my heart physically broke and so did my tear ducts, I cried and then cried some more as I told people and they hugged me with their apologises. My dad was the only person throughout this whole process that kept my feet firmly on the ground every time I spoke to him about it. Even when I told him that I didn’t get past the first interview stage he still said: “it’s not the end of the world”. It’s not what you want to hear when your own little bubble has popped and for you, your world has ended for the time being. But my dad was right. It’s not the end of the world, even if I didn’t want to hear it at the time.


It’s been just over a week since I found out that my summer will not consist of making memories and magic for others next year, and it’s still sore to talk about and I end the conversation if anyone brings it up, but I’m okay. Walt’s dreams did not get handed to him on a plate. He didn’t randomly draw Mickey Mouse one day and overnight build Disneyland. He had his own struggles in the world, he was poor, he couldn’t afford to pay his rent and ended up homeless for a while. If it’s your dream, you have to work hard to achieve it, end of.

A wise man once said, “all your dreams can come true if you have the courage to pursue them”. Courage is being able to show strength in a time of pain. I have to be thankful that I even got invited to a face-to-face to interview. Thousands apply and only a few hundred get interviews. This is not my only chance to achieve my dreams. I will be applying next year, and the year after if that’s what it takes. I will not give up on my dream after failing to achieve it once. Life is all about knockbacks, and after them, you only come up stronger.

The result of my interview hit me like a tidal wave, I ate my weight in chocolate that night. But it’s okay to cry sometimes as long as you come back fighting harder than ever.

What are your dreams, are you chasing them? Let’s chat in the comments.

until next time,
xoxo, rachel

P.S. It feels good to be back…haha!

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I Got THE Email | I Do Disney #2 | Sitting In The Clouds

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At the beginning of July, the 1st of July to be exact, I applied to take part in the Disney Cultural Exchange Program. Today, a month and a half after pressing the submit button, I received an email….

I’ve been invited to the pre-screen group interview. This is the first interview which you may be invited to. Unfortunately, if you don’t get an invitation to this interview your Disney journey has come to an end so you can imagine how happy I was when I saw “Congratulations” in my email inbox!

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I’m an early riser so my alarm went off at 6am this morning. I started my usual morning routine, aka check every social media account I have. The last thing I check on my phone, before getting out of bed and starting my day, is my emails. That’s when I saw it. I squealed, got out of bed so quickly and didn’t even care if my parents weren’t awake, I knocked on their door. They were both kind of half asleep so I just said “I got an interview for Disney” and then they were both wide awake. We then spent the next hour in bed with cups of teas and just chatting about it all. I’m still trying to process it all to be honest. This has been a dream of mine since a very young age and I’ve known about this program for a good 5/6 years. Having been given the chance to show why I deserve a place on this program in person, rather than them just reading a few words I’ve written, means a whole deal. I will be a nervous wreck on the day but know I just need to be myself.

Until then though, it’s just more waiting. My interview is on the 26th of September so I have another month and a half to wait, but I know it will all be worth it. Plus, from applying to receiving the email, it wasn’t that long of a wait…okay maybe it was, but still.

I’m going to leave it here for now as I’ve posted it everywhere else, Instagram, Twitter, Facebook, you name it, I’ve let the world know. If you have also received a pre-screen email, please let me know and we can chat about it. I would love to meet some people before the day.

until next time,
xoxo, rachel

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5 Youtubers You Should Be Watching | Sitting In The Clouds

Youtube for me, and I’m sure you can also agree, is a very enjoyable pastime and one you can spend HOURS doing. But with such a huge library of creators, you will never be able to discover and watch them all. My current “watch-later” list is standing at over 100, but there are a select few content creators that I will automatically go to when I’m in need of a pick me up and an instant entertainment hit. Are you watching them? because you should be…

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I watch a variety of content on Youtube, to beauty gurus, fashionistas and family vloggers. Throw some Dinsey magic in the mix, along with baking gods, like Sorted Food and you’ve got yourself hours worth of watching. I hope I have given you a variety of creators, I tried to name some smaller ones you may not have heard of, that you can now fall in love with like me.

Who are your “go-to” Youtubers? I love finding Youtubers to watch, even if my “watch-later” list gets even longer. Let’s chat in the comments.

until next time,
xoxo, rachel

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30 Before 30 | Sitting In The Clouds

I recently turned 20 and it occurred to me how little I’ve done with my life so far and how much I want to achieve. My little head is full of dreams and aspirations and even though I’m not even near my half way mark on my life, I’m starting to panic. By the time I’m 30, I want to feel stable and happy with my life. That’s far from where I am right now.  I shouldn’t really be worrying at all, 10 years is a long time. I can barely remember turning 10 and in those ten years, I finished full time education, begun and ended teenage hood, learnt to drive, been to Disney countless times, had a 4 year long relationship, made and lost friends, brought my first lottery ticket, celebrated Christmas ten times, changed so much as a person and done things I can’t even remember. I don’t think my 10 year old self wouldn’t recognise me right now. But being the list maker, planner junkie and organiser that I am, I’ve created a list of 30 things I want to do before I turn the big 3-0!

>1 Participate in the Disney Cultural Exchange Program
>2 Have a Degree
>3 Explore Australia & New Zealand
>4 Get Married
>5 Start a Family
>6 Work for Disney (HQ in Hammersmith)
>7 Help Rays of Sunshine grant a wish
>8 Do a Professional Internship at Disney (Burbank, Florida)
>9 See my designs somewhere in the public eye
>10 Meet my Kiwi friend
>11 Have a home library and office (aka own a house)
>12 Visit every Disney resort, including California, Shanghai, Tokyo, Paris, Orlando and Hong Kong
>13 Have a fitness routine I love and stick to
>14 Learn how to do a french plait
>15 Have my first nightclub experience (yes, I’m 20 and haven’t actually been on a proper night out)
>16 Own something designer (a handbag or a high end makeup product)
17 Meet at least one more actor from FRIENDS (I have met Matthew Perry)
>18 Have a stayaction in Brighton
>19 Go to a restaurant and only order dessert
>20 Go to a cinema and see the next film showing
>21 Celebrate a birthday aboard
>22 Own a dog (preferably a German Shephard)
>23 Have a “well stocked” savings account
>24 Continue bullet journalling and own all the different Leuchtturm1917 coloured notebooks.
>25 Own a vintage style polaroid
>26 Make sure I continually keep in contact with my three closest friends
>27 Keep up with my blog and have a custom domain name
>28 Enjoy a Disney cruise (stopping at their private island)
>29 Do some freelance graphic design work
>30 Stay in a treehouse villa

This list may be overly ambitious but it could be achievable. I guess I’ll find out in 10 years. If I have completed all these dreams of mine, I’ll be a very happy 30 year old and I won’t be worrying on my 30th birthday, much like Rachel Green or Joey Tribbiani from FRIENDS did….“Why God Why?! We had a deal, let the others grow old, not me!”

What’s on the top of your bucket list? Let’s chat in the comments.

until next time,
xoxo, rachel


Leaving Teen-hood | Sitting In The Clouds

Each year you get to celebrate the fact you are growing older, which really doesn’t sound that fun, but to be honest it really depends on the age you are turning. Kids love their birthday’s, most of them eager to age up another year to be able to act cooler, get permission to do more things, and just seem more grown up. I’m guilty of being one of “those” kids. But when you get to your adult years, birthdays become less and less welcoming. However, I see it like this…

“Age is merely the number of years the world has been enjoying you”

I recently turned 20, leaving my teenage years behind me and entering the real world of adulting. However, as each birthday comes and goes, I never feel older. I get asked my age and have to think about it a while before realising that, yes, in fact I am a year older. Nothing really changes except peoples expectations for you. I’m now 20 which kind of means I have to start taking responsibility for things. We’ll see about that. For my 20th birthday celebration this year, I rocked out to one of my favourite punk pop bands live, had a Stitch, yes from Lilo and Stitch, themed bbq and went book shopping. No afternoon tea, champagne and grown up talk just yet.


I had a great celebration into adulthood and a month later still don’t feel like an adult. Like Walt Disney once said, “adults are only kids grown up”. He was a man of many wise words but those ones speak to me more than ever. Age is merely a number, don’t let it stop you doing things you want to do. At 20, I had a Stitch themed party and don’t regret it one bit.

until next time,
xoxo, rachel